Drug Abuse Plunges Those Addicted Into Darkness
“Were all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.” -Oscar Wilde
Smoking, snorting, shooting, inhaling, embracing, dilating, shrinking, peace, horror, fear, solutions, answers, death, life unlived. I see nothing but the drugs. I didn’t just abuse drugs, drugs abused me.
Drug abuse affects the lives of many. It affects more lives than we can even begin to know. Drug abuse is a disease that is sometimes pushed under the rug, especially in families. I am here to pull it out from under the rug and shed some light on it. Drug abuse is not something to be ashamed of. It takes some time to get to this point but I know today for myself I am blessed and proud of what makes me who I am. My name is Rhea and I am a grateful recovering drug addict and alcoholic.
Looking back on my drug abuse it was one of the scariest times of my life, but it was the only life I knew. Drug abuse made me who I was. Drug abuse was what I identified with. It’s what gave me that peace inside that so few people get to feel. Drug abuse made me feel light as I plunged into darkness. I thought I was seeing the stars a bit clearer but really they were all falling straight out of the sky one by one. When I am looking back on my drug abuse, it feels like for all those years that I was asleep. My life is now a waking dream. I feel as if I am stretching my arms and yawning, seeing the world with clarity I have never had before. It isn’t hazy! I feel well rested and ready to take on the world.
I don’t remember when my using went from drug use to drug abuse. What I do know is when I realized it was drug abuse and I became aware of the fact that I had been plunged into darkness, into a world where the sky had no stars, trying to open my eyes from this terrifying universe I had fallen into and I couldn’t, I felt absolutely helpless and hopeless. Can you imagine wanting to wake up for a horrible dream yet unable to? Wake me up! Drug abuse has poisoned me! Help me to stop using! Yet no one around you knows how to help you, everyone is just as scared as you are. The most incredible thing is, this wasn’t just a dream, this wasn’t just a blog it was my life on a daily basis.
These analogies of course are very figurative, only another addict or alcoholic can know how literal they truly are. Drug abuse in all these descriptive words is a fear invoking thought, a fear invoking action, for me drug abuse was a life filled with fear.
Drug abuse- the place where your world has a sky without stars, your asleep and want to wake up,there is a place you can go, lucky for me and for anyone else out there dealing with drug abuse there’s a way to recover. There are things you can do, people you can meet to start putting the stars back into the heavens, to WAKE UP, and to be alive again.
If you or someone you know is dealing with drug abuse and would like to start waking up please call 877-711-HOPE or go to www.palmpartners.com